lost trust from my friends

yesterday night i just tell the true to one of my friend that i have betry them..
i feel very hard to keep it as a secreat...
and the next day, when go to collage i already don know how to face them...
and i tell them all about it....and the respone i get is they feel angry....
actually i already know this is the result but i still telling them....why?
i also don know...
when one oh my friend angry with me, my heart is so pain...and the tear is coming out from my eye....don care how hard i try to keep my tear from my eye, at last it also has falling down...
it make my mood very down now....and have no one that can help me le...

What is this feeling

What is this feeling......
I like this feeling......but
I don want it come to me.....cause
It will hurt somebody......how
What i need to do with it?
I cannot control it.....
My mind keep controling me.....
I cant control my self....
I don want to hurt her and him....
I feel very sorry to them.....
I really cannot control my self.....
Very sorry.......

My first blog

This is my first blog. I don know what i have to write in here.